My Story Writing
Who I am is not the neatly written answer
falling definitively after the question
begging for validity
dangerously subject to a better evaluation
and endlessly cycling back to another ridiculous question.
Who I am is not the pen that writes the answer
nor the page on which the answer falls
nor the journals inked with stale thoughts
scratched out in perfect chronological story
always trying to be an easier read
a best seller
or the greatest tragedy ever written.
Who I am
is not the voice of the reader
nor the narrator for those who cannot read.
Who I am
is not the heroin or the villain
a character acting out the story of some god
who deemed it so before I was born
secretly hoping I give an award winning performance
so the applause will prove my worth.
Who I am is the writer
bravely standing for the blank page
holding the empty pen
nothing but cause
inspires my own declaration
moving my now into action
spilling indigo
flipping pages
filling my life with integrity
carving my names in the sand.
Who I am is not what I said I am.
Who I am is who I say I am.
I am my story writing
between the beginning and…
“The End”.
~Karen Lynn Ragsdale 12.09.07
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